I closed my eyes to sleep and my kids grew up and became parents. Well, two of them.
I closed my eyes and my youth zoomed by. Now only those folks who can rightly be called senior citizens can consider me young.
I closed my eyes and the world went right on without me. And for once, I'm not stressed about it!
I'm scrapping more and I love it! I have several projects that I'm working on in one stage or another.
These are just a few of the more recent layouts. I'm starting to enjoy scrapping more. I quit worrying about being published. I quit worrying about being on some design team or another and just started enjoying myself. I scraplift when I want to. I use old techniques when I want to. I try new stuff when I want to. And I enjoy the heck out of it!! Now, maybe someday, I'll want to try for a design team or be published. Who knows. For now, I'm just going to have fun and learn.
The photography thing is also a lot of fun. But I've discovered a problem: I don't seem to want to charge people to take their pictures. I think the problem is this: when I'm just a friend, taking your picture for fun, that's all it is. But add money to the mix and suddenly I'm all anxious that it won't be good enough. My equipment is not enough, my talent is not enough, my whatever is just not enough. grrrrrrrrrrr!!! I'm going to take some time off in the next month or so and just take some pictures. I have a nephew who is a HAM who might just model for me so I can practice. I might have to bribe him with pizza, but I am his favorite aunt so maybe not! And I think I can get one of my sister's in law to model for me so I can practice boudoir shots, but her I might have to bribe with liquor.
A funny thing...I love the feeling of taking a picture of someone and helping them to see their own beauty. There's just nothing like it. My best friend doesn't say "I don't look good in pictures" very often anymore. If you look at pictures of her taken in the last year, her smiles are genuine and you can see the confidence in her eyes. I like to think I helped her find that. But I can't get those pics of myself like that! I'm going to have to get creative for that. Mike is usually pretty good about helping snap the shutter, but I have to get it all set up and only one shot out of a hundred are what I'm looking for. And while I would love a boudoir shot of myself, getting one is no easy feat. But it might just be worth the effort!
